Showing posts with label cancer stories. Show all posts
Showing posts with label cancer stories. Show all posts

Thursday, September 16, 2010

Down but not out

I'm feeling the blues again. Patient X was admitted due to pleural and pericardial effusion. It was a good thing he was at the right place. Only problem is, he's intubated but fighting.

I pray for his recovery.

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

ITS HARD TO LET GO

Sometimes we feel that we need to hold on eventhough we know that our holding on to a certain person or thing is actually making our lives a little less joyful.

I feel sad that we are about to lose one of the bravest person I have ever met. Even at her death bed, she calmly told us to just give her the morphine and let her sleep, sans the drama. But how can we do that?

Monday, February 15, 2010

Sad day

Things dont always turn out the way we want to. For the past 2 days, patient has deteriorated. She has said her goodbyes.

After 3 years of surviving cancer, patient has finally made peace and is awaiting for her return to Oneness.

Monday, September 14, 2009

Resistant to treatment

After doing so much and having the patient take all the necessary steps in his treatment for cancer, its seems like a losing battle. WE cant seem to get it undercontrol. When you did everything and patient still is not improving, something else must be at hand.

I asked to myself "did we miss anything?" I've addressed the diet, the works. He is compliant. So.. the most obvious question left was, is he emotionally healthy?

Apparently not. He's always irritated and angry at so many mostly mundane things. I was aghast! I've shouldve known better!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Another one past away

My patient for more than 2 years finally met his Creator. She was a very brave and had a heart of gold. She fought and fought until she had nothing left to fight with.

After undergoing a chemo cycle, her body just gave way and she was never really was back to normal. Her oncologist nicknamed her "flower" coz she had severe adverse reactions even with the lowest dose of chemo.

I will really miss her.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Past Christmas

Saw my patient again last monday, and I would say I am bit surprised if not elated at the turn of events. When I first saw him, I was guarded and frankly pessimistic (pardon my weakness) if he could last til Christmas. That was my goal, he be able to spend Christmas with his loved ones!

Well, apparently, he is doing quite well now, despite the 5 years of chemo and 15 session of daily radiotherapy. In fact so well that he's now a bit complaining, a bit more talkative and making funny comments at me or at our staff.

He's still weak though, cant walk, but can sit for longer periods. I really dont know what I did, if ever I did anything for him. A bit of ginseng, a bit of homeopathic rememdies, a lot of body works (Access).

I wish him luck and his pain to go away and gain all the weight he lost!

Merry Christmas to all!!!

Monday, September 15, 2008

A Mother's Journey

I just came across this site, won the Pulitzer prize.

I'm just so affected I felt the pain and anguish of both the mother and son,

This made my resolve even stronger to help especially these kids who have so much to live for.

I thank the photographer Ms. Byer! I'm sure even you were affected by this~!

Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Missing You


For the past 2 years or so, I have been going. seeing and talking with you. I'm so glad to have met someone as kind and generous as you, never have I felt the genuine trust from a patient more than you!!!

Eventhough I am the most junior of your doctors, you trusted and weighed my opinion as important as the others. Truly, I have never imagined that being a doctor could be such humbling experience. You have shown me so many things, given me more than I can ever imagine or ask of anyone.

But most of all, I thank you, for not only being a patient, but also a Father figure to me and my family. That is priceless. And though you are now somewhere in heaven looking down at us, most probably with that smug face of yours, I will sorely miss you!!! Every Tuesdays I always feel that I have to do something, only to realize you are gone and I have move on :)

Thanks for the lessons, the memories and the love, I know you treated me like your own son, I'm proud of it !!! Proud of being able to meet you!

See you soon :)

Saturday, June 28, 2008

Another one bites the dust

As i write this entry, my patient of 3 yrs whom I have had a wonderful time being with is slowly passing away, entering the kingdom of Heaven awaited by all his loved ones.

Its very difficult for me to see him in distress, much more to see the agonizing slowness of draining of the very life of him.

I remember my school days where the doctors tell us to keep a certain distance so that we wont be too much affected and therefore objectivity is maintained. Well, tell that to someone else, coz its really hard for me, especially for this patient who has showed me what generosity really means.

As he passes away, I look now into the future and begin another chapter in my little small insignificant life, compared to the life he will have.

Its hard to say goodbye, especially if until on their death bed, they expect you to bring them back to life.

So my friend, My Good bye to you, see you again in the next life. I will miss you so much

Sunday, April 27, 2008

Family support

For some unknown reasons, I am getting a lot of patients now with liver cancer, metastatic. All of them above 65.

Whats good about them is that even if their doctors have pronounced a Death sentence, they still believe and I agree with them, its not over until the FAT LADY sings or in this case when St. Peter calls them.

So whats more apparent in these persons is that I can't say anything about the family support. As I said to one of them, 80% of your survival now is entirely up to you! If you decide, "lets call it quits!" then there is nothing else we can do about it.

Twenty percent of the person's survival chances is the family and friends support. Time and time again I have seen it, if the family support is strong, our treatment does wonders to them, but if the family is passive, unsupportive or frankly hostile, we won't go anywhere.

So where does the doctor's or healer's help come in to play? Whether you believe it or not, its not inside the 100%, its only an extra or should we say placebo? of course a lot of people, especially doctors will disagree!

I guess its only an interesting point of view of mine.

Friday, March 14, 2008

Close call

I was at the hospital yesterday. The patient with gastric cancer check himself to the hospital because he was so weak and in pain. His abdomen was so tense, must be due to the tumor obstruction in the rectum. 
 
When I saw him, he was really having a hard time I could see. He hasn't slept for days because of it. I felt so helpless I couldn't do anything for him. I did some body process anyway, and prayed for the best.

This morning, his brother called me and bring me NEWS...

He was sleeping already.

During colonoscopy, they saw the stent that was placed had an obstruction to it, food particles and fibers. So upon clearing it out, he passed all the stools that were there in his colon.\

I'm so happy and relieved to hear the GREAT NEWS!!!
S

Sunday, March 02, 2008

Touching words

I had the pleasure of meeting a 67 year old mother who certainly looked younger than  her age.
She came to me because she had several mass on the pancreas and liver. 
It did looked like she had stage 4 pancreatic cancer.

The family have decided she not undergo biopsy or chemotherapy, however I asked her one question, which was "what do you want to do?" There was a pause for she hadn't made up her mind whether she wanted to do biopsy or not.

I told her that ultimately it must be your decision she is the master of her life not the family members
eventhough they are just looking out for her.

After we had the discussion on what she can do, while making the decision to do biopsy, she made a remark that really touched me.

She said, "I already feel better just talking to you?"

How can it get better than that?

What are the infinite possibilities for her to be healed of this condition?

Saturday, February 16, 2008

Anal cancer

I recently went to a 80 yr old female who is diagnosed to have anal cancer. She was obviously in pain 24/7 so she is taking morphine 10mg every 4 hours.

I feel so sad for her, I know she can do more . I did some treatment on her and immediately after she was able to eat and felt better.

Apparently, what really made her depressed was the way the doctors broke the news to her. It was like just "a matter of fact" without a hint of compassion, she as just told to go home and wait.

Friday, December 21, 2007

Patient's concern

The patient with gastric cancer is now more concerned with what will happen to those who he will leave in case he will pass away.

I feel so sad that the reason for his worries are not of self but of those who will left behind. I really admire his altruism.

I wonder how those people who have been dependent on his generosity are feeling. Anxiety, worry or apathy?

Friday, November 30, 2007

Graveyard Shift, a probable cause of cancer

So now, finally, experts have come to the conclusion that graveyard shifts, or working at odd hours are a probable cause of cancer!

I agree that this must be disseminated to all concerned, from the employees, employers and the government institution. Aside from the usual health industry, police force, utilities, we have a sudden increase in the number of call centers here in the Philippines.

Already, I have been seeing a lot of patients from this industry. Unfortunately for them, the REAL cause of their illness is their unfanthomable, erratic schedules of work!

I already foresee a big jump in health issues in this industry, and now adding insult to injury, cancer!

I hope people will start doing things right to correct this problem or more oncologists will be needed in this country.

Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Erythropeitin woes

The makers of Aranesp, an erythropoeitin stimulating agent has come out with a website advising patients to fight back and get back the Medicare to cover for treatment for anemia.

I wonder what will the patients do now if their RBC comes falling down! What a mess this is

Monday, October 08, 2007

Bad start for the week

Just got back from a vacation, and already its a bad start already.

The gastric cancer patient, Barry has metastasized lymph nodes all over the abdomen, now. He's not taking it well and so am I. Somehow I feel responsible for what has happened.

Everytime a patient of mine who comes back either sicker or dead becomes a personal thing for me. I feel like I didn' do enough for them.

My mind starts to doubt and question whether I should continue taking in cancer patients. My heart says yes, but my logical mind has started to plant doubts as to how can I cope with this morbidity of life.

Looking for Divine help!