Sunday, December 24, 2006

Its Christmas and I'm not exactly so happy, My patient just passed away a few days ago from sepsis. It was forthcoming, I knew it the moment the wife called in to tell me that her husband will go to the hospital because of infection in his T-tube.

Its so sad and ironic, that the last place people with cancer should go is the hospital. Its a sad and true fact. they are immunocompromised, any infection that they will get from the hospital will definitely make their life (not to mention the quality of life) shorter.

I hope the new year will bring better times for my patients, losing them this way is not what everybody wants.

Monday, December 18, 2006

Its soon to be Christmas, 7 days to be exact, my patients are quite ok except for one who has pancreatic cancer that is in the hospital with nosocomial pseudomonas infections. That is the very reason why I dont like cancer patients stay in the hospitals for long periods of time, they eventually succumb not to cancer but to infections.

I wish that my orders comes before Christmas so I can give my patient one more fighting chance!

I pray!!!

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Fresh from Malaysia

Just got back from KL, and it was an eye opener of sorts, seeing the sights, sound and smell of Malaysia, though only in the urban areas. I would love to see the beaches and the spas.

I was with my patient seeking another advice from a Nutritionist. Well, nothing really major, I do know that they use a lot of Dr. Rath's protocol which is composed of green tea extracts, lysine and proline.

I was a bit impressed with the level of involvement of the alternative medical practitioners in terms of government support. I hope I can also practice there when the time is right.
I got hold of a friend of mine in Medical school who had cancer. I feel so sad that it happened to one of my closer friends, in fact he is the nicer ones

I sincerely hope that it will be the last of it, and I pray he will get stronger. It becomes a very personal issue for me when somebody I know has this problem, considering I see cancer patients on a daily basis.

Saturday, October 21, 2006

I'm feeling a little bit better now, and my patient too. But now, I have 2 more who are in trouble. Arrghhh... dont know up to what time I can handle the stress

Sunday, October 15, 2006

Its been a hard 2 weeks for me. I'M FFELING SO DOWN AND lonely. I feel so bad coz my thoughts and what I have done seems not enough to help thos who really need it. I can't seem to shake the feeling of despair, must be from my patients (transference).

I hope I will shake it off soon

Monday, September 25, 2006

I have had the best 2 weeks so far in terms of my patients' health. Three of them are I would say, very well in terms of their overall health, 1 lung, 1 pancreatic and 1 gastric Ca, all of them in the stage 4.

Its unbelievable to see that their immune system are kicking in and tumor markers are coming down, 2 of them already have normal levels of tumor markers. Symptom-wise, 2 of them are having new worries such as electrolyte imbalance and lymph node enlargements.

The neck lymph nodes are a bit worrisome though, in the area of tumor excision and the surounding areas are all the same from previous scans. Just had a biopsy and waiting for the results. I would be devastated like the patient if it turns out to be malignant. Because, his overall health has drastically improved.

My patient with ADHD, however is another story. He's back on anti-psychotics but I think he just went to a phase of copying his classmates rather than being a behavioral problem. I hope he will soon be off that med.

Have a new patient, breast cancer without any operation or chemoradiotherapy, she's a full time alternative treatment person. I hope we can shrink the tumor in the soonest possible time. I dont really advocate a No surgery because I feel and think that the tumor load is too much to handle for any person. But we have to respect the patient's decision.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

Its been a long time since I last posted. Have had a couple of patients who were previously very close to the gates of Heaven. However, as must be God's will, they are now doing quite good and free or only negligible pain.

At present, I did one session of Emotional Freedom technique AND IT DID WONDERS in fact, that even I could not believe my eyes. I will be doing more of this I think.

Saturday, July 15, 2006

By tom, I will be appearing live at a TV show about Chronic fatigue syndrome, excited, no... worried mostly because I dont know what will I wear hahahaha. But I am really worried I coz I have to wake up at 4am!!! Oh my God 4 in the morning so that I cam be at the tv station at 5, show starts at 6am

I really dont envy those journalists and tv personalities

Friday, June 23, 2006

The patient I mentioned last time had came back to me, and I saw his imaging results. It was a bit disappointing, because the test didn't really clearly confirm that the cancer is gone. I suggested him to go back to HK for a PET scan. I hope that will settle once and for all, if the cancer is in remission.But up till then... we wait.

Friday, June 09, 2006

Miracle vs Determination
My patient has given the best news I have heard, he said that he was free from the cancer he had last yr. That was amazing considering that it was already metastatic a few months back.

I dont know if it was a miracle or sheer determination, I think its both. I hope he will stay cancer free a long time

Friday, May 05, 2006

I have a new cancer patient again and he's really not well, he just had a transplant last year and then this March he developed colorectal Ca that has spread to his lungs, liver and all over the place. He is still on anti rejection medicines, which seems to make the cancer more aggressive.

Despite 2 chemo and 12 radiotherapies, his cancer is progressing, the MD has told him to just carry out his last will of sorts and just wait to die.

He came to me, has lots of things to do, I dont know how much I can give help if not at least comfort and increase his quality of life

Friday, April 14, 2006

The past few weeks have been exhilirating and at the same time, nerve wracking for me. I have a new device the SCIO which can pretty much diagnose and treat the major problems in the physical, emotional and psychological realm. I am blessed that I found this device, for I know I can help a lot of people, one of which is my best friend for more than 20 yrs...

I just hooked him up and already it showed signs of cancer, I tried to ignore it but the device kept calling me to address it, it was a bit perplexing and in denial to believe it, since I know it doesn't make wrong diagnoses, especially if it made it self appear several times.

I just hope he will listen to me, my best friend and he will have himself check it up.

Monday, February 13, 2006

I have again seen another cancer patient who has undergone surgical removal of the stomach. After surgery, his follow up CT and PET scan revealed lymph node enlargement probably due to metastasis. He has been to several MDs both allopathic and Alternative. He is now undergoing chemotherapy to control its spread.

He currently takes about 100 different kinds of pills for his conditions, ranging from vitamins, enzymes, homeopathic, chinese herbal medicines and even Cell therapy. Considering that he has lost his stomach, hence his desire to eat, he still has the will power to consume that amount of supplements. My only concern for him is that with this amount he's taking, he may start sacrificing his food intake.

My concern and primary focus is for him to lead a normal life with quality. What is use of taking all sort of medicines that may only cause him to lose appetite for food? What is life, if you stay in bed 24 hours a day rather than spending a few good hours with your family in a normal and happy environment?

I guess we must put things into perspective, quality or quantity? I hope I can give not only the extension of his life but also imporve the quality of life he is living.

Wednesday, February 08, 2006

Its so heart warming to see the very person you see and help, to be able stand up and start walking again, after being in a hospital for 2 weeks. It might not be so fantastic if not for the patient's age - 82 years old. Every doctors that for every single day that a person stays in bed, the chances of being able to walk becomes smaller and smaller.

But here, from her strength of character, she started to do what doctors would not normally encourage, since she has a very serious irregular heart rate. I wanted to help to instead of giving her more medicines, I slowly removed them one by one and monitored her progress. In a period of 1 and a half month, she is walking and dancing (her favorite past time) again.

I have helped several people who are determined to become better again, and all of them are over the retirement age. The important thing is perseverance. For without it, everything a doctor, nurse or helper will do, wont amount to anything. There are times really that even myself start to wonder what makes them want to stand up and walk again after a gruelling life. What gives them the energy and inner strength to come out of the old shell?

I guess it is our inherent instinct and that is to live! Everyone deserves a second chance, whether they were crippled from accident, suffered self inflicted injuries or chronic illnesses. So when you see someone trying to get up from a wheelchair or a bed, always put in mind, its not only about being able to stand up, its about living their lives to the fullest.

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

It has been a great time for me taking care of this patient of mine for the past 3 weeks. The patient has recovered quite fast considering her octogenarian state. I have never seen anyone before that has literally improved from being on bed all the time to dancing and climbing stairs in a span of 2 weeks.

I hope the patient will improve beyond the point prior to her most recent hospitalization. The patient has willpower and that is the main difference. Many people dont realize that even with willpower alone, you can make yourself better and rise to the occasion. The powers ABOVE have given us that ability, and yet we seem to forget and belittle this ability.

Cynics calls it placebo, like what they say about acupuncture treating some disorders like cancer or degenerative diseases. Well, my contention is then the that placebo is still better than theirs.