Monday, May 28, 2007

Lost cause?

My patient with breast cancer just informed me that all the doctors have given her the diagnosis of stage 4 cancer as if it was the death sentence. She felt sad and seems to believe what they are saying.

I replied: " those who are happy that they are alive are more likely to live longer than those who thinks that their lives are about to end soon."

And this is so true. I have had patients who worries too much about their condition that it has taken control of their lives or the fear of death that faces them, makes them even more prone to their death bed.

Those who are happy, accepted their fate but at the same time tries to live their lives as much as they can, have lesser incidence of infections and cancer-related morbidities.

In the end, it is the psyche of the patient that dictates the course of their lives, rather than the other way aroun

Wednesday, May 23, 2007


I haven't blogged now for a couple of weeks, I guess I'm just to depressed to do anything right now.

So much have occurred recently and I should be happy but I'm not as happy as I should be.

Must snap out of it soon.

Have so much to do, to meet people, to discuss future plans.

Thursday, May 10, 2007

Slow week

Its been a slow week for me, everything seems to move in slow motion. I'm wishing that this week will end soon and my gloom will clear out soon.

Tuesday, May 08, 2007

Bone metastasis

Almost all my patients who have passed away seem to succumb sooner or later to bone metastasis. This is the most painfull of all the pain there is today, and to avoid having bone metastasis is my number one priority.
Once symptomatic bone metastasis sets in, everything else is unimportant. Only pain is the concern of the patient. Sleep, food, medicines, supplements, social manners takes the backstage. There are medicines that can halt it or delay its progression, but the costs are prohibitive in this country of mine. I wish that these medicines are available to them and they don't have to suffer unnecessarily.

Friday, May 04, 2007


When patients go from bad to worse, you become more paranoid and doubtful about your abilities as a healer. Mind you, as a healer not as a doctor. A doctor prescribes medicine and hopes that it will work and if not then lets try another.

A healer in my definition is someone who alleviates and cures illnesses, via drugs, herbs, or simply by counselling. I find it more hard to heal than to medicate.

My patient is definitely going down unless we do something drastic. Drastic meaning it may be a bit tricky and has risks involved. But at this point, where I feel that I have done everything within my abilities and powers, I have to be more aggressive and really pro-active in this patient's condition. The patient has already sought so many doctors, posing-to-be doctors, GOD-complexed physician as well as good-hearted healers (only they seem to be fewer in numbers than the aforementioned).

I am now praying that it will work or else, someone will become orphaned and widowed soon.